I should not have to quick to say that I am all good.
I am not.
It came crawling back in the past days.
Didn't wanna see people but I was ok.
Then I felt lonely.
Then this weird harrassmet shit on the autobahn happened yesterday.
I have been so, so upset about it.
Today I broke down.
I really try to keep it together but I just can't.
Actually now I can breathe a little better.
It's just all to much for me.
Why can't I do it' Why can't I function normally.
I would just love to be able to get out of bed and get my stuff done.
Instead I break down everytime it's really important that I am able to handle a normal schedule.
It breaks me even more.
Now that I am sitting here crying, trying to calm myself down, I already have the next thing on my mind. Gotta juggle being a mess, doing my assignment that's due on thursday, go to work and finish my thesis. How will I ever be able to finish anything when I am always such a mess.
I hate myself right now and I know I shouln't cuz it makes it worse. I should treat myself right. Love myself, because I am the only constant in my life. How can I love myself when I fail at the easiest tasks?
I will try to do the assignment for my class now.
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